2 jobs for 1 pay

Yes, I have done it--I may or may not be doing it now--I am sure that many do it. It's like being on a 8 hour date, 5 days a week! But that doesn't mean that it's a good thing. It can be, but not always.

Having more than just a working relationship with someone that you work with--it's fun, it's exciting. It may even be scandalous.
But once that shit becomes a problem--it's time to let it go.

How is this ever expected to end well? Shit happens. Feelings get in the way. Bosses get nosey. Co-workers gossip and talk shit about you behind your back. There are questions. Some may even be bold enough to ask you. Others will just let their speculation be spoken as the truth. People will take others word as the mother fuckin gospel. When co-workers are fucking, everyone wants to hear all the dirt. Everyone wants to know what is going on. People believe what they want. No matter what the real truth is. If you admit to it--you are fucking. If you deny it--you are fucking. Let's face it--that's just the way it is.

The people involved can't go to lunch together. They can't ride the elevator together. They can't be seen talking to each other. There can be no jokes, no laughing, they can't even look at each other.
Because that will confirm what everyone is thinking. They are fucking.

Let's just say, I have never admitted to anything. I don't really deny it either. I just play along, laugh about it and keep on walking. I just let everyone think what they want. I call him my man (which he is not), I call him my husband (which clearly he is not) and I call him my baby daddy (which he also is not) I say that I love him (which I have convinced myself that I do...AND?....) I can do what the fuck I want, last time I checked, I am an adult..I do not offend anyone, we all laugh about it at work. I give very few details about what we do after work...which since APRIL has been nothing, because I am still kinda pissed at him. I have never confirmed that anything sexual has happened. If it has--it has, and is no one's business. If it hasn't--it hasn't. And is still no one's business.

Yes, it is known that we attended my (not our MY) Holiday party together LAST DECEMBER. That's basically when all the gossip started (as I knew it would). And it is known (for whatever reason, because it is completely irrevelant to anything) that he picked me up at the airport after a business trip IN FEBRUARY at which time my boss asked me if we "were together" to which I replied "no--He and I are just friends" to which he replied "Brenda-you don't have to lie to me..it's not a big deal" to which I then said.."We are just friends" and that was the end of that....so now this is JULY bitches, and you JUST now want to question our relationship?
Is all this investigation shit necessary? Clearly, it's a waste of time. No one knows anything for sure. And no one ever will. Except me. and him.

So can anyone tell me at point does this become my (or his) employers business? There is not a fraternization policy in effect, people are dippin their pens all up in the company ink on every floor and in every department. It just so happens, that I am me. and he is him.

My theory, is that's what this is all about. It has nothing to do with work not being done. It has nothing to do with special favors, or preferential treatment. It has nothing to do with any company violation. It has nothing to do with any inappropriate behavior. It is just because I am the her. and he is the him. Period.

If I want to do 2 jobs for 1 pay, that's my goddamn business. Shit, I may even be doing 3 jobs for 1 pay. Who really knows?