What's the lesson?

All is quiet on the work-front. I have been completely avoiding my partner in crime/co-worker since Thursday. Barely even a sighting. It hurts me because we are friends. We were friends. And I feel like I can't even look his way, much less talk to him. I had to give him some papers yesterday, and I looked at the fucking floor. LOL!

Anyway, Maybe this is the best thing. Maybe this is a person that I have no business being friends with. (Just typing that makes my heart sad). Maybe this friendship has run it's course, and it's time to move on. I know in everything there is a lesson. But what was the lesson?..I don't think I have figured that out yet. I need more time.

I need more time with this beautiful man. I need to be near him. I need time to figure him out. I need time to just be. Just thinking about him makes me smile.
I am not ready to give up on this, but external forces are making my decisions for me. That is not fair. But I guess everything happens for a reason. Everything.

Although, I think the ultimate lesson is much bigger than this, here are some of the things that I have learned:

1) Never try to form a friendship with a co-worker of the opposite sex.
2) Friendship very easily turns into love.
3) Co-workers are ruthless. And have no loyalties when it really comes down to it.
4) Don't show all your skills at once. Make 'em wait for some things.
5) Always follow your heart. It knows when it's had enough.
6) Things are not always as they appear.
7) There is such a thing as passion.
8) Body language is a muthafucker.
9) It is possible to have a conversation with your eyes.
10) Some things never even have a chance.

Once the real lesson becomes clear, I will let you know.